hAh LaUgHiNg Is FuN

Nectar, Nectar
Hector.
Wine Wine
Rhyme

This is the Ryhme
In which I whine
And moan
And throw around
Old stones into
Drains
And brains
That stick and paste
In rotten heads.

This is the Rhyme
In which I flag up something
Right here.
It's been brought to my attention
That Rhyme is for cunts and losers

This is the verse
Which mocks the curse
That old verse which hoped to burst
How I work

But fuck you

Buttfuck you?
No thanks
I've had my fill
I've had my wanks
Now this is horrid drop your ears
Fuck you you queers
And tears, tears.

This is the part
Which cackles like them
Them downstairs
Outside
hAh LaUgHiNg Is FuN

Looking good in the abyss

Holy fuck
If i'm travelling into the abyss
I at least want to look good.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
They all cheered outside
What's funny
Is the fact that
This is funny
HAHAHAHAHA
And she never even saw it coming
HAHA
Everybody says that.
Been saying it for twelve years.

Those two, it's not just them who raised me
It's the lot.
All those guys. They're all my parents
And my parents
They're married
They're both married to each other
But they flirt
And feel each other up
They forget
Or swap
Or switch around.

Ma has always wanted me to perform
In every sense
I've got to do well.
But for people
For people but for her.

Come down when you're ready darling
You make me laugh
Whassat?
Just a bit of writing Ma

Dad, I
I
I don't know what you think.
I think sometimes we are very similar
You know it's all good
But everything is fucked
Everything could always be better.
I've got to do well.

I feel pressure like I feel loss
YOU HAVE TO THINK A LOT
BEFORE YOU NOTICE IT

But it's there. And you make it too.

Stretch's Baby Girl

As I eloped
And returned to Stroud,
I walked down the high street
proud
excited
maybe.

I saw my old friend Rosie
She had a baby
So you're a mummy now?

Yes she said
Her name's Bonnie
She said
And she toked hard
It's been a while I'm sure.

Funny that my parents
Would have called Rosie
A baby
And not her Baby.
Babies having babies, that's what it is.

Age is more than a number
That much is true
Having the guts to do
What the other kids won't.

Want respect? Use a condom.
Want a house? Don't.

I
Tried to
Fix the bits, but
The bits layed betwixt
a length of cord in iron
mist, which grabbed my
heart, which broke
my wrist and
punched my
ears

A Solid Fist.

Years Later

I was 32 at the time
His mother must have died some years back.
The fellow was nearly ready himself.
'How is the moon tipped?'
I asked
'With gusto'
He responded.
I looked into his eyes.
He was lying to me.

Being in love is nothing to do with Romance

The terrific stare of the mongoose in it's prime. The slow slow stalk of a man through a jungle with a trinket.
The gain of a nation is gathered in quantity unparalleled by all.
No mundane decay. That one lifetime, that becomes but one moment in the passing breath of memory. The incident, the event. The breeze of meaning. The purpose of existence.